Friday, January 30, 2009
Thursday, January 29, 2009
So very good . . . cause in His time it all comes together.
As I tumbled this morning into one bodacious cry fest . . . I mean pitiful, gut wrenching, splotchy faced, red nosed, would you just get a hold of yourself girl! kinda cry… I hope He looked down from on High . . . and, I hope, with a smile and a shake of His head, he just thought what a silly one! Knowing that needs were to be met!
Why is it so hard and such a struggle at times to stand on faith and be patient? Do you struggle with this? What do you do when you just can't muster up more than a mustard seed?
Indeed, the very hairs of your head are all numbered. Don't be afraid; you are worth more than many sparrows.
(ah shucks, go away tear!!)
Tuesday, January 27, 2009
The difference in the life of kids now and life when I was a kid amazes me.
Last night I had The Man at Scouts. While the local Garden Club ladies were, unfortunately, boring this group of Scouts to death, one of the other mom’s and a couple of father’s and I were talking.
One dad mentioned boys getting interested in girls by the time they are 14 and then there goes Scouts. Too much competition. The mom says “what are you talking about? We are already there, and I don’t mean with my oldest, but with . . . (her 7th grader – 12 year old).
The mom proceeds, with a comfortable laugh, to tell us a tale from the recent Scout Ski Trip. She drove, with just her boys, in their own vehicle. She stopped at a convenient store to fill up and get something to drink.
When she gets back into the car, her sons are giggling in the backseat.
She says “what’s up?”
Mom “I know better than that”
Boys “ok, since we talk about everything and weird stuff too … well the bathroom had a condom machine and we bought the assorted pack”
Me and one of the fathers: taken aback!!!
Mom “I told them, where do plan on using those? You are at an all boys event?”
Boy “You never know who you might run into! See, one has bumps, one is flavored, and one . . . “
I have no idea what the last one was because I was in a state of shock! Not that condom conversations have not come up with my kids, well one of them. Not because I am a prude. I actually have a dirty mind a lot of the time – but I control where and with whom that side shows.
I was in shock that basically she “seemed” to have been ok that her 12 year old was looking for the opportunity!! I was shocked that no moral lesson was administered. I was shocked more that she let them keep the above mentioned items and thought it was funny how big the pack made his wallet!
Then today, I was telling the college student, that works part time at the shop, about it. Her younger brother is in the 6th grade at the same school as The Man. And her mom makes her have the birds 'n bees conversations with him. He was telling her, the other day, things that kids are saying AND putting on their MySpace pages. Items related to alternative lifestyles, nd switching back and forth and so on. 6th Graders!!!! 6th graders contemplating that kind of lifestyle and experimenting?? Very disheartening.
I probably should not be. Demolition D came home with all kinds of announcements and questions at a much younger age, thanks to the public school transportation. Because of curiosities at such an early age, I resorted to something my mom would ask, just to keep up with what he was being exposed to. I remembered my mom asking me in probably 4th or 5th grade if I had heard anyone using the word “sex” or “sexy.” Sexy, yes, it was how they dressed; they dressed older-like than the rest of us. But at that time I had no inkling of what those words referred to. But it was a great way for my mom to screen and address what I was being exposed to without giving away too much.
As I said above, I incorporated this with Demolition D. He came home one day and asked “Mom, what is a prostitute?” Caught off guard, I asked where he had heard that word. “On the bus.” I told him we would talk about it later. I hit him, after a bit, with the question “do you hear kids talk about the word sex?” He said yes. I asked him what it was. “It is when a man and a women kiss.” That was it. Simple. No need for me to elaborate on that. Later when the first question came up again, I told him it was when a man paid a woman for a kiss. He was satisfied. Until he told his friend the next day what I had said and the friend told him I lied to him. He came home and accused me of lying to him. He was right. So I told him, I didn’t exactly lie, but it was when a man pays a woman for sex. I went ahead and said that because in his young mind, it was the same as the previous answer.
So I decided tonight would be a good time to find out what is being seen and heard and see what might need some further discussion. Time to casually bring up school and inch my way into who is dating whom and so on. It always works well. Once you get the boys talking, they give you more than you expect and it sure makes it easier.
I am happy to say, while The Man probably knows more at 12 than I did at that age, he is fairly innocent, especially compared to his peers. He shared that school is “full of drama” (with a sigh). People dating and breaking up and texting all the time (did you know word does not recognize texting as a word). I asked him what do kids do these days when dating. He said “talking, some kissing, and texting, mostly texting each other.” I dug just a little more and then reminded him he was a gentleman and the girls ladies (I hope), and he was to keep it that way, at least between him and girls.
I am blessed that he can be in world that is seething with immorality, and yet he seems not touched by it. I love that he attended the Created By God class at Church – learned so much, but did not let that aspect of life take over his thoughts. Maybe the fact that he is a video game junkie is not as bad of an interest as others around him. I love that he is still so naive and innocent in many ways. He is The Man!
Now if I could just pull that tangled up web of tales apart into at least one coherent post!
Friday, January 23, 2009
I started seeing these mentioned in post around the end of 2008. I thought “what a neat idea, a theme for the year …”
Not so quick. Picking a word for the year was harder than I would have thought. There are so many! Easy picks like peace, but, for me, that is tooooo beauty pageant sounding. Perseverance came to mind, but our family has come through so much fire the past several years, it did not seem appropriate. Too dark for this year in light of the past. And thankfully I saw it had been snatched up. Change came to mind. With Traveler graduating and moving on to her next niche in life, and with the economy and with the boys finishing another year of school, and, well there is always change! But I don’t really embrace change, at least not of late.
I decided it was too much pressure. So that was it. Not another thought going in that direction . . . but it kept showing up! Everyone is doing it!!! Peer pressure at its best . . .
The second week of January, we started a new book in the Sunday night Bible study group. The book is part of the Companions in Christ books and it is “The Way of Discernment.” I love that this book was picked!
This year there are plenty of decisions to be made. There is also, an inner struggle for me dealing with differences of perspective or interpretation that I cannot discuss with the loved one that I am having this with, and they don’t realize that I am wrangling with this (I don’t want to throw a wrench into things). I have a child that will be driving and working. This will lead to changes in the dynamics of our home, in his visits to his dads and with more opportunities for him to make decisions – choices between right and wrong. Many more weighty issues come to mind and some are quite heavy.
As I was studying this week’s lesson, I was overcome with joy with many of the scriptures and guidance it is offering. It spoke of the fruits of our Spirit and about turning the gaze inward to see if we are in fact, embracing and nurturing these gifts inside so that we may be able to outwardly share them. There was a quote, from around the time of World War II, found in a Swedish diplomat’s prayer journal “If only I may grow: firmer, simpler – quieter, warmer.” I liked that. I liked the character that represented. For me it represents God living in me and through me.
And while I was reading and absorbing all that was being said, the light bulb came on and blinded me. My word! What I need for this year. What I need, in order to give to others this year. What I need to feel stronger through the decisions and changes to come.
Discernment, I will seek this gift of God so that I might be able to grow firmer, simpler, quieter and warmer. To share the love of God and live my life toward the goals he has for me. . .
Catch some fish!
Wednesday, January 21, 2009
Tuesday, January 20, 2009
See, forty years ago today, Nixon was being inaugurated. Thirty-Two years ago, Jimmy Carter was being sworn in to the Presidency. 1981, we welcomed Ronald Reagan to lead this nation. The list, of course, goes on from there and had gone on before the mentioning of these leaders.
All this leads to the mix . . .
Birthdays . . . one of the ones I remember the most did not necessarily have a great ending . . . family did gather . . . crowds gathered, for that matter. . . I do not remember the gifts I received. . . But I do know there were speeches given . . . people cheered . . . there may have even been some tears.
My birthday is January 20th and the year was 1977.
The day started out wonderful. My grandmother was visiting from Nebraska (we lived in Colorado at the time, but did not get to see her very often). My mom had made my all time favorite breakfast – French toast. Now, I tended to like my French toast rather simple, butter was all I needed on top! But this being a special day, you know, my birthday and my grandmother was there. She talked me into venturing out a bit, and convinced me to try something new, maple syrup on my French toast! It was different, not necessarily bad, just new (hang with me, this is relevant).
So I gobble down my breakfast and then I was off to school.
A few hours later, I became sick. Sick to my stomach sick. My mom was called; I was picked and went home, thinking and believing, the maple syrup made me sick! And sad to say, I still, to this day, do not add maple syrup to my French toast, pancakes, nada! Nope, not going to happen . . .
But this is where the gathering begins . . .
We turned on the TV.
And we watched . . .
The countries 39th President – Jimmy Carter – be sworn in.
As I said, crowds were gathered, speeches were given, people cheered, and probably, some people shed some tears.
Four years later, we had moved to Georgia. On my birthday, I again, got out of school early. This time, not because I was sick, but to experience history taking place . . .
to see Jimmy Carter return to his hometown.
I have recently found some really bad pictures from that day in 1981 . . .
It was rainy and cold, and as said above, I had been taken out of school early and we headed to Jimmy Carters hometown to see his return. We went to the feild where the helicopters were landing. My mom and brother are in the picture. We were hoping to see my cousin, who was one of the pilots during Carter's presidency. We did not - he stayed in Macon.
Monday, January 19, 2009
Then I have a wonderful wooden bowl my mom gave me for Christmas. I had placed some greenery and mercury acorns in it.
It is as wintery as it is Christmasy (new word).
I laughed the other day as I passed by the table and noticed something odd:
Do you see it? The bowl now holds another mercury item in its collection.
A light bulb.
I cracked up – how did a light bulb get in there? It turns out it is still good. Hubby replaced it with a brighter bulb and did not have a box to place the forlorn bulb in. So he placed it with the acorns cushioned in the greenery, duh?
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Friday, January 16, 2009
Last year around this time, my sweetie decided to give me the best birthday present imaginable.
Friday evening, he told me I needed to pack an overnight bag, that on Saturday, when I finished at work, he would pick me up. Exciting! He would not tell me more than that. Saturday came, I finished my day and off we set on this surprise journey.
After picking me up, he did tell me where we were going, he was taking me to snow!
The forecast showed a possibility of snow as far south as middle Georgia. He had checked out several places and had decided not to take a chance on Georgia snow and chosen a B&B in Highlands N.C.
About 90 miles out of town we came across the first signs of snow. Then there was more and more!
We exited the interestate to snap the first shot of our snow-venture.
North of Atlanta, almost to the state line, guess what? The S.N.O.W. was. gone! Poor Will was a little disappointed but we were looking forward to a night away.
As we approached the Georgia line the sun was setting. We crossed over into N.C. and started up the "mountain" in the dark. After a few miles I started to notice something. Through the dark, under the trees - white stuff. More snow! Yes!
We wound our way in the dark up the road. More snow. Some Ice. It was beautiful!
We arrived at the bed and breakfast, crunched through the snow to the warmth of the inn through sites straight out of Christmas song.
The next morning we were out early taking in the area and the snow!
And yes! Snow Angels are a must!
There was a park down the road from the B&B that we heard had a beautiful view. It was iced over, so no driving up the half mile road to the view. So we hoofed it, out of shape, but we made it. A half mile, up a steep incline, out of shape and on ice? Yes, even a meesly half mile whooped me (a flatlander). I have not fallen on ice in years, but what a trip back to a time long since passed.
The view was spectacular, the wind chill biting, the birthday gift - the best.
Monday, January 12, 2009
We almost missed this one this year. In previous years, small teepees are placed near hotels and main interesections in town about the week before the event. I think the lack of the tents is also a sign of the times - I am not sure the cost associated in setting up the tents, but I would bet that would explain the lack of visual reminders around town. I am so glad Becca sent me a message they would be there!
Many times the weekend is very cold - at least cold for this area! Not this year. It was quite mild and with that, there were many more vendors and canvas tents. Many travel around to these events, others participate from closer by, from nearby towns. Those with skills of an era gone by demonstrate for those of us that completely modern day.
Home made soaps are made, tools are demonstrated, sodas in good ol' glass bottles for sale. As we walked among the tents and vendors one lady demonstrated a type of dulcimer and I realized quickly she was playing the song sung at our wedding - "Tis A Gift To Be Simple." It was beatiful. Becca said they had fried pumpkin bread and hubby got an order with the fritters. It was wonderful!
So some pics of our world this past weekend . . .
This fella was pretty interesting . . . as was his friend
You can see the tail of a fuzzy little creature in the picture above. The gentleman's friend was a Sugar Glider, a cute nocturnal creature from the land down under. The gentleman had the glider on a leash. As we watched the funny character, you could see it eagerly watching for the next thing to jump on. He managed to jump onto an unsuspecting child once, bless his heart, he screamed and jumped and laughed - the whole time the critter was running all around him.
I did take my turn at letting this cute creature glide across to me. It was a little creepy feeling having this fuzzy critter running around my back and over my shoulder, but he was too cute!
We later saw the gentleman without his friend. When Becca's daughter asked him about the Glider he said he was down for a nap.
Becca and her daughter left the frontier to the boys for a while and came home with us for a spontaneous dinner. When we returned to the park, it was after dark and there was a light drizzle. The sounds of the fires and the few instruments playing was soothing and transported you to a time I have never experienced. Under one of the pavillions, folks were gathered and trading items: blankets, hatchets, lanterns etc. They were having fun enjoying each others company and a world that is probably so far from their everyday lives.
As for next year? We will be there, not in dress, but we will stay in the "modern" campground adjacent to the festival. We will enjoy the sounds and smells and sites that those who love this time gone by so much, share with those of us with our feet firmly planted in the new millenium.
The Man had his first Church basketball game Friday night. Not only was it the first game, it was the first time anyone even knew who would be on the team! This might stress some, but our youth basketball teams do not practice. We no longer have a gym at our church. What use to be the gym is used for the contemporary worship service and Wednesday night service now.
Saturday, January 10, 2009
so, by request from Linda at 2nd Cup of Coffee and Carrie - host of the Phriday Photo Phun, and feline lover ,
I give you . . .
a recap of picture #2 and the missing picture #3
Here kitty, kitty, kitty!
Ok Carrie - still friends?? hehe
Friday, January 9, 2009
Tuesday, January 6, 2009
I have had a little much needed time off. But I was not looking forward to returning to the routine. I love what I do, but there is apprehension with not knowing what to expect. So not liking the feeling of being slightly overwhelmed with the what if thoughts, I prayed. Prayed that God would use me, that I would feel invigorated about work. And it worked. I got to work and jumped in in getting set up. I felt energized and cheerful.
I asked . . . I recieved . . .
Now for not asking . . .
Then the snakes in my head woke up. Not about work, that part is still good. Traveler leaves back for school today. This holiday has been different from others due to the fact that we were the portal to World War Craft – online gaming, and we have internet, so she needed our home. We were in the presence of Traveler more than any other vacation/holiday. Granted, she was like The Man with his games, transfixed with the need to be only in the presence with the game itself. There was more interaction between the two of us, so that was a step in the right direction. Poor hubby has to deal with me wanting a friendly relationship and Traveler not being aware that there is any problem and being perfectly happy with things.
I had suggested last week that hubby take Traveler to lunch Friday, since she was leaving. That way they could have some “non-computer” time to chat. They did. We, hubby and me, had decided to take the boys to see a movie Friday night. I invited Traveler to go with us and she did. We had a really good time. While she was here, she made a lot of grilled cheese sandwiches on our little George Foreman. We were given a larger one for Christmas, so I offered for her to take it back to school. She is and she told her dad about it and was excited. She is vegetarian, so I sent two Loaded Baked Potato casseroles with her. Well sorta, she forgot them so we needed to get them to her today. She asked her dad to have lunch with her. I told him I would get them into a bag today and they could pick them up from me at the shop when they went to lunch.
Ok, so this is where the snakes come in. Inclusion – the state of being included. Somehow, this morning, in my mind, I decided they might invite me to join them. Many Tuesday’s I can’t leave for lunch, but today I could. Granted, hubby did not know that, but still, being invited, included would have been nice. So with all the aggravation and truly extreme differences in Traveler’s and my views, I still wanted to be included to feel accepted. Which I know if hubby read this would think is crazy! I also know that is rather narcissistic, but those were my thoughts, my desires.
So while one prayer was answered, I guess I forgot to continue to pray for the relationship between Traveler and me. I am sure come May, after graduation, we will have our next opportunity of togetherness. I don’t know what my prayer would be, except “Lord have Thine own way. . .”
Yesterday, while the windows were open and the birds were chirping and I was refusing to go any shorter than capri work out pants (no shorts! It is still January!!), I was cleaning. Yes, spring cleaning, cuz I am going to be sitting on my rump while the rest of you are doing it in April! Just kidding, I'll have to do it again. Anyway, I digress, I did a little in The Man's room and thought I would update the unread post from back in the day.
See this assortment?
He had actually cleaned his room some over the weekend, so it is just a small one. See the empty box? 50 mechanical pencils were given at the beginning of school. How long should 50 mechanical pencils last? I mistakenly believed all year. I was wrong. I think the box was empty by Thanksgiving. He kept the box. Where are the pencils?
Well, see the small item to the right of the box?
Monday, January 5, 2009
I found red
And I followed the wornderful sweet scent to the Tea Olive . . .
Between the warm temperatures and bright days, now the color that is starting to peep through there are tugs at the strings of spring fever. But I know nature will take it care of it and a cold snap should come through any day now . Until then, I will continue with spring cleaning. Yup, so when spring is really sprung - I can sit back and relax!